Getting Warm

I can't think of anything you could say

that would make me start to trust you again

I really can't

So while the hens sit and chitter to each other

cluck cluck clucking away about the grand meaning of it all

I sit here yelling at you in my head

too polite

too realistic

to yell at you anywhere else.

It was time you said you needed

so time you've had

a lifetime's worth

yet again

and meanwhile 

lives moved on

lives moved on

lives moved on and over and through and both nothing and everything has changed

really

both nothing and everything has changed

Audacity

a word he keeps using 

and now I may have to turn towards you

if you have the audacity to want to be a friend now

Now?  After all the things said and not said

done and undone

after the way you spoke

and treated

and asked for things beyond what's fair

or kind

or nice at all

You were the one who told me you were grown up

and could play with the other side of the room

You were the one who told me

that this time, THIS time you meant it

for real

and I would be the one

you knew I was

for you

grown up

and

truthful