I've forgotten how seasons work.
I lie in bed and count months on my fingers
AprilMayJuneJuly
no that's too many
there are four seasons
and three fours equal twelve so
three months a season, yes?
"that math checks out"
I say to myself
and so DecemberJanuaryFebruary must be Winter, right?
but there's overlap,
and fire
is a season now
and three quarters of a month before a week
is a new season
and the counting starts again
JanuaryFebruaryMarch no that's not right
start again
start again
start again
what I think I know for certain
is that I've forgotten how seasons work
when they change
which months they hold
because I'm tired
and all the things I used to know are gone
and I'm left with mountains of worry
about things that don't
yet
exist
and I lie in bed and count on my fingers
realizing I've forgotten how the seasons work
and one day's cold
the next is not
and I think we're still in Spring
you know?
