Untold

I've forgotten how seasons work.

I lie in bed and count months on my fingers

AprilMayJuneJuly 

no that's too many 

there are four seasons

and three fours equal twelve so

three months a season, yes? 

"that math checks out"

I say to myself 

and so DecemberJanuaryFebruary must be Winter, right?

but there's overlap, 

and fire 

is a season now 

and three quarters of a month before a week 

is a new season

and the counting starts again

JanuaryFebruaryMarch no that's not right 

start again

start again

start again

what I think I know for certain 

is that I've forgotten how seasons work

when they change

which months they hold

because I'm tired

and all the things I used to know are gone

and I'm left with mountains of worry

about things that don't

yet

exist

and I lie in bed and count on my fingers

realizing I've forgotten how the seasons work

and one day's cold

the next is not

and I think we're still in Spring

you know?